I wrote this because I have a worn and confused heart

And even though we're only minutes away we seem so far apart

I know that I'm stupid because I treat you very mean

Sometimes I wish that all of this was nothing but a dream

So I can wake up and start my day brand new

But the only person I ever think about is you

I wish I could undo all the wrong that I've done

And hopefully I'll find a way to makethat battle won

I know that I shouldn't say this but I feel our end is near

So I do the best I can and pray that I can keep you here

I don't know what's wrong with me and why I treat you bad

Everything I do always seems to hurt you and make you mad

Maybe I'm doing it on purpose, although it is wrong

I'm probably teting you to see if you really are strong

Or maybe I feelthat I'm losing you too quick

My mind is thinking that maybe it's just a trick

But I know that you're a better person than that and you're not that way

My heart is aching by which words can't describe, so I won't even try to say

My anger isnever justified and is almost always wrong

I'm sorry for this and I ask you please help me be strong

I can never do enough to erase the hurt I see

I know now that the way we once were, again we will never be

I know you may not believe this but I believe every word you say

But its hard for me to trust anybody, I wish I weren't that way

But I will try to trust you, this I say with all my heart

I will try to change and be a better man, this I'll finally start

But with all honesty, I'll tell you how I feel

Believe me when I say this for all my words are real

The reason why I feel this way is because I have no confidence

I lost it all a long time agon and I know I have no chance

I hope that this has helped make you understand

And I want you to know that I just want to be your man

I'm sorry for all the times I've made you mad and I hope you can forgive me I'm sorry for all the times I've been mad at you, I know it wasn't right

I want you to know that I think of you every day and night

And now as I try to wipe all the tears from my eyes

Believe me when I say this because with all sincerity, I apologize

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