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Deep down inside he thought of and missed the other

His mind was with June and that he kept from the mother

His life had hit a crossroad and he didn't know which way to go

He longed to be with June but this he had realized too slow

And now she had come back into his life after many years apart

He was happy because she was the one that was always in his heart

But even still she had hurt him so often before?

Would it be different or would the pain grow more?

Was it worth it to him to risk April to be with June again?

But despite all that made sense he risked it, willing to deal with the pain

But June was in also in the exact same position as he

She was with someone else so how could this possibly be?

Nothing was planned, just making it up as they went along

And it bothered him every time he heard a love song

But then it happened, the moment he had silently longed for

He wouldnt be able to her for a year, maybe even more

Maybe now he could be with June happily

Would he love April more or would he be free?

But June also wouldn't be able to see her love for another year

So now he could be with her as long as others didn't hear

Although June seems to like him, he still doesn't know what to think

Would she stay with him or would their love once again sink?

She's told him that she may ignore him by accident

But she's already been called his girl by his parents

What should he do to live his life in full

Should he marry April or would that be bull?

Should he stay with June who may leave at any second

Or Autumn, his daughter, with who should her life be spent?

He always hope to have April and June in his life

At least be friends if one doesn't turn out to be his wife

But to lose Autumn would truly be the end of his world

Never did he think that he could love this much his little girl

But his plan is to marry April and protect his daughter

Hopefully with him in her life she could get farther

But some may ask why even marry if your not in love

But don't forget he is not the way we all dream of

His heart is tearing at the seams and the only way to live

Is to love both and to both the world he will try to give

But if he marries April he hopes to have June as a friend

Someone he can trust and maybe hold every now and then

But his main love is that for his daughter

The one that fills his life with laughter

It may seem wrong for him to be this way

But what is love?, he wonders every day

- Chan S.

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